The B List….
It was approaching three years ago when I was packing my belongings and headed to Weston Super Mare. The plan was simple to build a new life for me and my boy near my family. A flat was found, the deposit paid, so I said my goodbyes to friends in Poole and hopped on a train pointing northwest-ish to start my new adventure. On this train I penned the B-List! It was a simple list of hopes and dreams aspirations that I would endeavour to fulfil. As time passed that work and commitments outside the home relegated that insignificant piece of paper to a drawer… till now.
The B list.
1. To Cook from scratch, good food simple ingredients grown myself / sourced locally.
2. To be creative, to write and think and make.
3. To make sure in my working life I make a difference- to find worth in the work I do.
4. To walk, to see and to feel the seasons as they pass.
5. Get a bike, one with a basket would be good.
6. Embrace the community that I find.
7. Recycle, reuse see the worth and potential.
8. Make sure above all else I laugh each day, but never at someone else’s expense.
In the last three years, I have taken steps to fulfil some of these hopes, I do try to cook, but I do not have a vegetable patch or even a herb garden. Financial obligations seemed to override the simplest of ambitions and I found I sold my sole to pay the rent worked for a pressure sales company and lost track of what my self had sought. So for a long time my day job did not have that positive impact that I had hoped, indeed it began to suffocate me. With my faithful hound I walk often I see the changes that are surrounding us, feel the warmer rain as summer approaches and yes I now have a bike. To cycle in the centre of any urban landscape is it’s self an education and roundabouts, they are just scary.
So as I look down this list I come to the community, it is a funny word, once associated with villages, or areas of town, the locale. Yet now we have the Polish community, the Gay community, the Black community, the religious community of whichever doctrine you choose, the list goes on and seems to separate groups from the larger environment placing them in a niche that defines them as different from those around them. That separation was not what I sought. Yet a collective a true community in the sense that I had hoped was located and so I began work as a barmaid and so to laugh, we cannot laugh all the time, life is a serious business (so I am told) and to be fair I do cry sometimes too.
Current assessment of the B list!
1. Not successful but attempted when possible … no garden allotment etc (fail?)
2. To be creative, yes I write and recent loss of day job has given me more time to make (recovering from fail)
3. 2.5 years with the hell-centre, sorry call centre, followed by a stint drowning in complaint processing… new job to be started (recovering from fail)
4. Oh yes big fat tick on this one !
5. It took nearly 3 years but I have one and I ride it ! tick
6. Tick and tick again
7. I think I can also tick here.
8 and another tick…
Yet here I sit, lap top at the ready… and what do I think, well it is time to live the B list, blog and laugh along the way.